25.5.06
i think somewhere along the way i kinda stopped believing. stopped believing that anything could ever be perfect. think i've become rather cynical. every time i hear someone bragging about how perfect their lives are etc.. i'll just be rolling my eyes and thinking 'yeah right'. but at the same time i'm super optimistic about certain things. maybe to the point of being in self-denial? i duno lar. kinda weird i guess. but i'm not about to change it tho.i guess i am kinda stubborn. i refuse to admit that i made a mistake. even tho i know i didn't exactly make the wisest decision. but still. i just must must must prove that i can still pull this off despite all my stupid decisions. i refuse to give those dumbos the satisfaction of gloating. shit. i hate them. yucks. aiya i just cant wait for the hols.
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