17.6.05

sixteenth.JUNE. a night to remember

today is truly a night to remember. but before i talk about today, i must talk about yesterday which was very memorable too. i stayed up all the way till 4am making muffins. actually i could've slept earlier. but while melting the chocolate chips, i kinda melted the plastic spatula i was using too. haha. so i had to remeasure, reheat, remelt, re-everything basically. and this time i followed the recipe damn closely. to make sure nothing went wrong and i could actually give it away to ppl the next day. by the time the first batch of a dozen muffins were out, it was already 4am, so i decided to make the second batch the next morning which was er..in like 5hrs time. anyway, when i woke up, i was in a vry chiong-ing mood. everything must hurry do, cos no time already and i still havent wrapped the muffins and i realised i don't have any nice ribbon or string to tie the wrapper of the muffin with. so i had to use ugly rafia string instead. but it turned out pretty nice. haha. so proud of myself. in the end, i managed to do everything on time and i didn't forget to bring anything to school. phew! actually, looking at my own present now, i think its very nice. haha. i think the muffins i made are nice too. altho those who don't like chocolate wouldn't like it vry much.

today's concert day. the very last performance with the j2s. the very last everything for them before they join the oldies club. if i could, i would video tape the whole day from the time we reached school to the time we left vch. i hope my memory wont fail me, cos i want to remember everything about today. the whole afternoon during rehearsals, i didn't really feel much. only until the moment the doors opened and ppl started coming in, did the significance of today hit me. i was sitting in between este and matin(a spot that i'll miss). we were joking arnd as usual. i didn't tell them, but i was feeling pretty sad then. knowing that its the last time i'm going to be sitting in between the two of them, joking arnd while making music. anyway, the concert began and we played our pieces fairly well. the more commendable ones were multitude and gr. well, there were quite a number of screw ups in our performance, but i felt that it didn't really matter. cos what i needed to remember was all in the heart. how we felt when we played. how we cherished each and every moment of it all. how there was this air of contentment and a sense of closure all around but also a certain longing for more time with the j2s. and most of all, that we shared this journey together. and that this moment belongs to us, and nothing can take away our memories of it. yup i think that's how i was feeling. i can't quite put it down in words, that's probably a watered-down version of it.

well, i guess that's it. the journey ends here for the j2s. and for us j1s, life goes on and we now have to start making new friends and forming new cliques. not to replace the old ones, but i guess it's to help us carry on from here.

i will upload the photos i took today when i figure out how to.

zzz. *today=yesterday 16.06.05*

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